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Notes for the Everlost The Dread Crew Flight of the Griffons If I Were A Zombie

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For months I’ve been gasping for breath. Sitting in airtight bubbles at the respiratory clinic while a nurse shouts kindly through the plastic ALL THE WAY, ALL THE WAY, HOLD IT, HOLD IT but I can’t. My chest won’t open. I can only ever get half a breath, or two-thirds if I’m lucky. Any more than that and the pain unleashes a round of coughing. Talking triggers the coughing too. It hurts at the half to two-thirds point, and the vice around my ribcage extends through my neck and to each eardrum. It could be asthma, but the puffers don’t do much. It could be allergies; GERD; gluten; perimenopause. We’ve had the ducts cleaned and I cut out wheat. I’ve tried advil for inflammation; loratadine to dry up fluid; steroids for when it’s bad but I’m still wheezing, feeling somewhere on a spectrum between constantly faint and exhausted.⁣ ⁣

Today is a bad day. It’s tough to concentrate. Hands squeezing around my neck and a sumo wrestler sitting on my chest. Advil, steam, and the puffer have done nothing, so I’m sitting here trying to think what to do next while muttering to myself DON’T PANIC, DON’T PANIC but how can one not panic when you’re breathing through a straw?⁣ ⁣

I’m sick of this nameless thing attached to me, following me into every room and every conversation as it must, as it’s observable. I’m tired of apologizing and tired of feeling like I’m complaining and tired of feeling tired. So I name it out loud here because that’s what I tend to do when something feels irretractable. I point at it. I point at and wonder about this decade where chronic things may well settle in for the long-haul and every doctor’s visit feels like one more piece of a jigsaw puzzle to turn this way or that, maybe. On the verge of a new crop of bodily mysteries, I wait for something to change; for my next appointment; for Chet Baker, if nobody and nothing else, to help me get some air.

Steeling myself for a grown-up meeting about insurance or money or something. I’m the worst partner ever when it comes to these things. Want to laugh? Hungry? Sick? Tired? Sooky? Need a party or a story or a photograph or want to feel special? Want to tear apart a shed or refinish a floor? I’m your girl. But listening to some other form of the supposedly-English language while signing important papers without zoning out like the opossum in Fantastic Mr. Fox: not my forte. I can shower and put on some clothes for a change. But please don’t expect me to be anything other than a nice-smelling opossum.

Orange 🔥 to a haze of pink five minutes later as the sun rises on the day of April’s last snowfall. Sailors take warning, the saying goes.

It’s a pizza-making day for feasting, drinks, and games with friends tonight. Celebrating the day this lovely tall guy’s little Dutch mama—it’s a long story—brought baby #13 into the world. Happy birthday, you prince of delight and delightedness. You are a one-man pile of puppies. ❤️ 🎂

This year’s Slush Cup at @902martock was 80s-themed. Ben was authentic vintage party on the top and I was authentic vintage party on the bottom. Barely squeaking by with puddles and sugar and melting ice patches and mini-ponds. And a live band playing Toto’s Africa. Perfect 🤩

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